Hailey is the bestest in the world. 

 Hello this post is dated so soon after the prev cos I drafted the prev one and then forgot to post it until now. 

The previous one was 6month pp but now I’m 8months pp and it’s just been getting better. it’s unfortunate that I have to go to work cos I just want to be with Hailey all the time. And Hailey is current in her wanting-mom phase so I’m enjoying it while it lasts. She cries when I walk away from her though (to bathe, to eat etc), so that’s heartbreaking to see. but when I approach her, she always laughs and breaks into a crackle. her eyes crinkle when she’s happy. I always have a really good time playing with her and at night, chris & I review our daily loot (of pics of her) together before we turn in. 

I’ll say “wna see my loot?” and he’ll say “but does yours have THIS??(some other pic of her doing smth funny)”

I never thought I’d be a “photo of my family on my wallpaper” kind of person cos I don’t like when people chap my personal life. I hate it when ppl ask about my home, my fam, see pics of me with them, etc..cos I like to keep personal things personal. Eg I don’t even like when colleagues ask me non-work stuff like where I go during leave. My office didn’t know I was married for a good length of time until idk who (probably my bosses) mentioned it. I don’t like it when people ask me “how are your parents?” cos bruh unless you’re 2 specific friends of mine, I don’t want to share that info with you. 

BUT. 

Here I now have a printed pic of Hailey on my phone case. It’s not for others to see but more for me.  Whenever I see her naughty face on it, I just get a small little shot of dopamine hahaha. 

Ok anyway 8-mth Hailey is very active. She has clear preferences for people, food, and toys. she has a specific favourite toilet she likes to hang out in, she likes to grab my red hairband, she picks the “bicycle” puzzle out from the vehicle-puzzle-pieces set. she eats certain stuff and pfffffts out others. right now she seems to like mini oranges, tofu, spinach is ok, salmon. She doesn’t like omelette although she likes egg whites. She doesn’t like minced meat (probably cos they taste like pebbles since they’re so thoroughly cooked that they’re dry). 

She will roll around in bed and lunge at stuff to get them cos she hasn’t gotten familiar with crawling yet. She’s very close to getting it but shes very wobbly. She will pull herself up by grabbing my shirt. And she has stopped eating cloth which I kinda miss but I guess it’s for the better haha T_T. My wet sleeve days are over. Nooooo. She also doesn’t stretch her arms out in hopes of baobao anymore. She uses her newfound mobility to do even more hahaha. 

She’s very fun to be around ^^ 

Kk I’ll continue this post another time. I’m excited for my friend who’s in Germany to have her own bundle of joy! Now I feel secondary happiness for those who are gonna discover this dimension of happiness the way I did. ^^ 

Ofc everyone is gna have a different experience - me enjoying time with my bb doesn’t mean anything about my thoughts with regards to childfree life etc. I think at the end of it all, just respect that life is life, whether big or small, young or old, and fluffy or not etc. so set free that spider in your kitchen, redirect that ant away into the wilderness instead of squashing it, celebrate those who don’t want kids, and accommodate those who bring kids into public spaces like planes or restaurants. Cos only entitled asshats think ‘ppl nowadays are so selfish for not wanting kids’ and ‘if your kids are gonna fuss, don’t bring them out in public’ cos like bruh let kids express themselves. and let childfree people do too. you asshats don’t have claim over spaces except that of your own home. so stay safe in your basements, or 6 feet under. Thanks :> 

Thankfully I don’t know such people in my social circle (except this Barbara who said not having kids is selfish). So im just having an imaginary conversation with those netizens who fit the shoe. Hahaha kthxbye

Hello there. 

 hi there bud. Today I’m back here with another DUN DUN list of stuff I like! 

I just have this desire to tell you and a desire to make a list, and I know I’ve done these lists several times already but I just can’t stop hahaha. Typically such posts are triggered by my enthusiasm for 1 particular item in this list at the point of posting, but simply coming here to simp about one item is too lame. Do people still say ‘lame’ in this time and day? Nah bro we say it ain’t lit? no wait that’s still one generation behind. Now we only be calling things ‘bussin’ or not. Idk what it means exactly but here goes my list of stuff that’s bussin:

(Also, now I understand why recipe blogs have these long background stories. It’s just human nature to overshare hahahaha) 

Alright, here goes in no particular order:

(PS this list is applicable more so for this period of time in my life. I’ve been fussy about food lately, and my tastes have temporarily changed.)

1. Mongolian pork rib (sg zichar style) aka the trigger for today 

2. ….ok haahah this is taking me some time to think cos I actually just want to list item (1). maybe uh… oh oh, mango! 

3. I don’t think I’m into kiwi btw. Ok this isn’t supposed to be part of the list but I just wanna mention this cos I ate some this noon and the tartness got me reeling. Um ok number 3 item here is…. British strawberries. I LOVED the ones I ate in London while it was in season. I have never before had such TEXTURE and BLISS touch my soul hahahah. I don’t know about japanese ichi go since the good ones aren’t in my budget but the London ones from borough market and tesco were one of the top 10 moments in my life. I wanted to bring some back to sg to share but lol they didn’t survive the flight and were mouldy by the time we landed. I think I wasn’t supposed to soak them in water prior oops. Idk how they can hold their shape in your hands but burst into sweet nectar the moment you bite into them. it’s just so wondrous bro. 

4. (adding to this list a few days later cos HAS ANYONE HEARD OF GREEN ENVY GRAPES??? They’re so good????????? I ate some muscat recently, I’m not sure what kind, but I was kinda meh about it. Maybe I hadn’t eaten the raved kind  but US GREEN ENVY SEEDLESS are so good????? Firstly, don’t @ me when it comes to grape colour - green wins hands down. And grapes must be seedless, we’re in the 21st century. I like my grapes super firm and crunchy, and green envy is exactly that!CRISP TO THE CORE. The first bite had a taste that I had to get used to, I don’t know how to describe it, but it’s subtle. And then I just couldn’t stop eating the 1kg. In a day, I’ve managed to finish till only a handful are rationed for tomorrow. It’s got the texture of jambu? I vaguely recall green Sweet Globes tasting good too. I should’ve asked for grapes every birthday if I’d known they could be this good but ex. Ntuc grapes can go to $4-5 on promo, I don’t know what type or weight..but these 1kg green envy on promo were $17. Typically I wouldn’t buy them but the hubs did and now I’m up at night trying to find Reddit threads on best grape varieties. I wonder how Cotton Candy grapes taste.)…..

update another day later: ok, so I was only left with 3 green envy by the next day. So hub went to buy more. I asked for the cheapest but perhaps it ain’t grape season cos the only available was Pristine grapes, 454g for $10. Dang. But it boasts a “vanilla streak with zesty Granny Smith apple finish”.so I did a taste test with green envy, and I find green envy is just 10% more crisp, although Pristine tastes kinda better by 5%. It doesn’t have the strange first bite taste. But the difference is so slight, and I value texture more, so green envy is still my top choice.

Ok that’s enough for today hahahahaha I ain’t in the mood for more. 

What else can I talk about though? I haven’t been here in a while and I’m feeling chatty. 

I guess I just wna share that whenever I feel like food is meh, I begin to have a general disinterest in life. maybe it’s more a chicken and egg thing. Interest in life and interest in food. The recent discovery that there is Mongolian pork near my place just lifted my spirits cos thinking about what to eat has been very tedious recently. 

On another note, am I the same person as I was before? When I come here I feel as if I haven’t changed hahah. I talk the same way. Rather colloquially. I don’t have imagine anyone on the other side reading this but I still feel like I’m having my social needs met. As if I’m having a conversation. 

Right now I’m feeling quite happy. I’m looking forward to dinner tonight. 

I think just being able to exist and enjoy is the ultimate reason for life. It’s so wonderful when I get to do that. Like eg on holidays just doing nothing at home. I just love it. Just having this freedom to roam an unending field in my mind. I could do anything but also not do anything! F R EE DOM. I only let good thoughts come into this space right now. 

Im not like this at other times. Just recently I went on a hooha about the threat of rabies cos I chanced upon some comment about it. But that’s not me right now. The me right now is on cloud 9. 

hm what else can we talk about. well. i liked hanging by the playground or parks after school last time, especially during sunset when the weather’s cool and the sky turns a paddlepop colour. Oh dang I haven’t had a paddlepop in ages. would be nice to have one now. my all time fav is probably solero though. but maybe right now I’d go for a strawberry milk bar. I’m in a much more pastel mood now. Evenings always kinda feel endless. Just like those times I stayed alone in school last time to do absolutely nothing on my own. it’s so chill and peaceful. 

when I was a kid, I used to like edgy things like horror and happy tree friends. I thought they were fun. now, I’m super mellow and mild, and I like shows that are just feel good vibes. So I haven’t watched stuff like penthouse. I’ve instead rewatched ouran high school hahahaha. I think I was cool both as that kid and as this one though. I liked both versions of me. They fit whoever they were/are at the time. 

Fav horror probably was Shutter. The one about the camera. 

Young me preferred scaring others and laughing at horror or haunted houses but now me thinks it’s more fun being scared and and screamy hahaha. 

mmmm I still wna talk but I don’t know what about. Hm maybe I guess I can talk about…. my ideal daydream! Ok so I’m in a pastel fluffy cloud, and I’m wearing fluffy cotton candy, and I float up a palace made of candy. There are little fairies and they fly so nobody touches the food-themed surroundings ahaha. I also float. I reach out and taste a little bit of this and that. And then I float down and wake up to eat real soul food like Mongolian pork with rice. 

Oh speaking of soul food, I watched a video of slice and rice and saw them spazzing over slice’s mom’s peach cobbler. Now I wanna know how it tastes like UwU. I searched up recipes but I know I probably ain’t gna make it cos I ain’t about that hassle hahahaha. Maybe one day I’ll have a peach cobbler and also some strawberry custard strudel. 

Oh yea I could make another list of gifts I’d like to receive. I like making lists about myself hahahah. 

1. Green seedless grapes (the trigger for this list)

2. Peaches  I love peaches

3. Strawberries and mangoes 

4. Mochi (the strawberry red bean daifuku kind, or the mochi ice cream kind. I don’t like any other random mochi) btw mochi is SUCH a hassle to make. seriously. If not for how expensive and hard to find fresh strawberry daifuku are, I would never make them. My whole counter be covered in flour and sticky stuff. Plus you need hands that don’t feel no heat to knead it. I hate kneading butter into stuff. It gets everywhere.

5. some kind of healthy snack cos lord knows I need balance in my life. 

6. Adding figs here cos I thought about it while writing the next list.

7. (added days later: EXPENSIVE GRAPES like Green Envy or maybe a Roman Ruby? Never tried the latter but maybe one day if I strike Toto which I don’t ever buy , I will. hahahahah)

List of gifts I’d rather not:

1. chocolate (at some points I do have weird cravings for those fancy beautiful chocolate with decadent fillings especially fruity ones, but right this moment I don’t feel like it cos I’ve got so much choc in my fridge right now)

2. Raisins, cranberries, dried fruit or nuts. But I like dried figs. And LOVE fresh figs. 

3. Physical items. Idk they take up space and can’t be eaten. And I’m a hoarder so what comes in never goes out. 

Ok my dinner’s here. I gotta go. May come back later. Bye!

 yknow those Facebook summarized movies? yep I came across one on Artificial Intelligence and i cried as hard as I did when I first saw it as a kid 😭😭😭 it’s got to be on my top movies/shows.

on a related note, though I don’t remember the plot of momiji as clearly, I recall it being a sobfest too. Touching bunny movie. You’d never expect that would ya?

But artificial intelligence is smth I don’t think you’ll forget if you’ve seen it. It’s life-changing. 

Up there with ‘1 litre of Tears’. 

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I can’t wait for the rest of my life to happen. I think it’s gna be so fun and awesome. i also think it’ll be pretty short. my life, I mean. perhaps just life in general. i hate it when i go pro-immortality and chris says status quo is fine. 

I want to live till at least 120yo. 

yeah sometimes I feel like I wna die but hey, those are emotional expressions. Not action plans. 

;) 

But time is so scarce innit.